The Soundtrack of my life...
If my life had a soundtrack it'd be pretty diverse and very much filled with sad songs. For one when I was six I was in foster care with my three siblings and we were living with not very good people at the time. It was an abusive home so the first song I'll list is Concrete Angel by Martina McBride
The focus of this song isn't necessarily for me... It applies to someone close to me and is perfect. My older sister Brenda was going to turn ten in eleven days. My biological mother was an alcoholic and lost us permanently to the foster care system when I was two. Brenda was the only constant person in our life and because my other two siblings had fetal alcohol syndrome I was pretty much always in the background she was the main source of love I got and basically the mother to us three. On November 2nd, 1999 Brenda was beaten to death by my- we'll just call him Kevin (http://brainerddispatch.com/stories/110999/new_1109990010.shtml). All I remember of that night is being woken up by a flashlight in my face by the cops. I remember seeing her in bed and willing her to wake up that we were going to be free... I didn't know that she wouldn't wake up. I don't remember when exactly I realized that she wasn't going to come back...
The next song for my adoption
There's probably a better song for this but it fits Held by Natalie Grant (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i-hJ87ApWtw). If I hadn't been adopted I probably would've ended up homeless or other trash. They were strict and helped turned me into the person I am today and they gave me the love and attention I had always needed.
At the end of middle school I got hit by depression for the next four or five years I was stuck in it... With three trips to the psych ward and self-mutilation.
either Pain by Three Days Grace http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cPlu227Ib8I
or Waltz Moore by From First to Last http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kbQjMjcxMmQ
There was a point in my life when I hit one hundred pounds where I stopped eating. I had this stupid idea that I was "the thin girl" and when I started growing and gaining more weight I felt like I was losing my identity. I don't know why I started eating again. I think it was around another stint in the psych ward.
The Ex See Day 12
Either Tears Don't Fall by Bullet for my Valentine http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pV-eSndnhKs
which works with the cheating and lighting him on fire aspect
or... My Curse by Killswitch Engage http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iPW9AbRMwFU
Since you just got two posts about them that's all I'll leave it at k bai :3
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