Day 12

What you would say to your Ex

   You hurt me and I never told you how much. Of all the girls you chose to spend your time with you chose the skanky ugly ones. These other girls that you treated better then me. All I tried was to be this "perfect" girlfriend that let you do what you wanted and didn't get mad.

   I gave you a gift meant for someone better. And I gave it because I thought then I could keep you. When I didn't really want to keep you. I was lonely and everyone else thought we were supposed to be together. At least that's what I thought. It was the damn high school mentality sort of like how cheerleaders are "supposed" to date jocks I thought I was "supposed" to date you.

   I wish you would admit you never loved me. I wished you'd admit it was all a lie. And I wish I had never met you. I had this stupid idea of the person you were and I just deluded myself into believing that. I spent all my time wondering when I'd see you again while you were telling your friends to not tell the girl you had in your bed that you had a girlfriend. You'd try to turn me against the girls you cheated on me with, you'd make excuses and I'd pretend I believed you.

   I pretended I was ok with it.

   I pretended it didn't matter as long as I was your "girlfriend" then that was all that mattered. I pretended I loved you and I wasted three years of my life on you. Wasted so much time thinking about you and how to make you happy when you didn't give a shit about me.

   I want to hurt you as much as you hurt me...

   But I can't...

   I was just something to put your d*ck in but I was the one that made our "relationship" feel like it was just for sex? Telling me how I'd still be pretty if I got pregnant, talking about where we'd live when we got married all this bullshit that I pretended to believe.

   You destroyed me and I hate knowing that. You took the last bit of faith I had and tore it up. And now your just "Over that Charlotte shit"?

   Good luck with your new 16 year old pregnant girlfriend. I hope you don't fuck up her life anymore and I wish I could say I'm over it. But I'm not...

   I hope you die miserable and alone.