Day 2

How have you changed in the past 2 years?

Me 2 years ago

   When I was 17 I was still dating The Ex who was let's just say a complete waste of my time. Now I'm not going to lie I'm still heartbroken from everything that happened now he's with another girl gushing about how much they love each other and she's pregnant. This isn't to be viewed as me still having feelings for him. That's not it at all. I just don't understand how he could treat me so terrible then all the sudden turn completely around from this girl who no offense isn't as attractive and is still in highschool. Two years ago I was still a virgin. Two years ago I was miserable although to be honest I'm not doing much better I have a job now but as I've said I'm done on the 14th. My boyfriend is wonderful but I'll admit I liked it a lot more when he wasn't so needy and controlling. He says he feels like I'm not as attracted to him anymore and I suppose it's true. I'm not attracted to someone who's constantly checking up on what I do and needing to be reassured of my love... I'd tell him  but I love him and I don't want to hurt him.

   I used to think my parents were strict and unbearable now I credit them to the fact I can actually get a job and pay attention to where my money's going if it's even going anywhere.

   So an Abraham guy had my phone number before and I'm still TO THIS DAY getting calls from places trying to get a hold of him I don't know if the bastard is still listing off my number on shit but it's been OVER A YEAR. Stop calling me I don't know you or Abraham. I hate getting calls from places/people I know let alone strange shit that when I call them to tell them to get rid of my number they try to hook their claws into me and have me be part of their cult.

   No thanks.

   

   You ever have one of those days where you just want to punch everything for NO REASON like none at all. You're just sitting there and all of the sudden get this wild urge to break everything. I get that a lot. Also if I'm holding something and I see someone 9 out of 10 times will consider throwing whatever I'm holding at them. I can't tell you how many times my phone has been thrown at people... Or my iPod. Or a pop or cat or book or fish food or sandwich etc... I don't know why I do it 5 times out of 10 its an instinct thing. I'm very impulsive which is a bad thing. 

Person I just threw my wallet at: "Ow! Why the fuck did you throw that at me?!"

Me slightly dazed: "I got the urge to..." or "I have no idea..."

   Yep if my brain has a thought on occasion it will just act out on it without the consideration of checking with me to see if I'm ok with it. Which you know, is usually ok with me for the throwing things because it provides entertainment however the thoughts that go along the lines of "You should jump that fence in your dress" leads to "how the fuck do I get down without something embarrassing happening?" Or "It'll be ok if I...." to "WHYYYYY?! WHY WOULD I DO THAT?!"

   Yeah a lot of my friends think I'm crazy fun but a few times a little extreme. :3