Something you’re currently worrying about.
The future, but who doesn't? I don't know what I'm doing and I'm not sure how I'm going to get there. I'm worried me and my boyfriend won't resolve our issues. I worry about anything and everything. I have this thing called Generalized Anxiety Disorder. It means I'm a freak that can't relax and I'm always worried about unrealistic things happening like "What if the end of the world happened right now?" or "What if he was hit by a car and killed?". Things that normal people don't think randomly.
I also used to have really bad social anxiety. I'm adopted and being around my new adoptive family was hard for me because growing up I spent a lot of time alone and I was in fostercare so it was strange for me to be around a family setting. I've gotten better with my anxiety and I can manage it. Now I'm just "shy" I suppose that's still kind of my anxiety because I can't introduce myself to people. If I go to a party and don't know anyone I will sit in a corner by myself too scared to walk up to someone until they come over to me and start talking to me... Then I'm just chatty cathy and the friendliest thing. Until then... I'm asocial... =.=
And even it I so much as think of going up to someone I don't know and talking to them my heart beats hard and fast I get all hot and dizzy and wow I didn't realize I was such a freak until this moment lawl.
I feel like I need to make these longer. But perhaps that's just me. It seems most people's blogs are PAGES long... Then again if it's too Long: Didn't Read.
People that know me think I'm awesome whereas I think I'm boring as fuck... Actually now that I think about it my opinion is usually the exact opposite of those around me...
One last thing...
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