Day 1

• Weird things you do when you’re alone

There's nothing too weird that I do when I'm alone. I talk to myself a lot more. I make up stories and hum songs that don't exist. I suppose I do too much thinking. I get lonely way too easy when I'm alone and I suppose that's why I'm quitting my job here and taking a pretty shitty in comparison job back home. I made youtube videos when I was alone before, they weren't that great but it gave me something to do to pass the time. Mostly I just play FFR when I'm alone.

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      I suppose that's why I'm on here now :). Again this will probably mainly be for my own entertainment and I'll be tempted to skip ahead and do tomorrows day today. But I won't. I SHALL ENDURE. You know this really isn't that different from a journal except complete strangers can read it... As long as you don't know me I guess I don't care that much.

   

   Because that question was answered in such a short period I suppose that's how I'll do things answer the thing and then journal : D. I'm Charlotte. I'm 19 and currently working as a waitress. Minimum wage isn't the same for waitresses where I am so I'm paid 4.25 an hour. However with tips if it's not a slow day I usually make 10 dollars an hour basically for 14 dollars an hour. 

   

   The job I'm hoping to get back home is overnight stocking at Cub for 8 dollars an hour... I told you I don't do well when alone and that's all I am living here. Back home's my boyfriend (fiancee) and friends that don't care that much but at least I can force them to spend time with me. I used to write I used to play flute I used to draw and sing and hope for things in life... However I literally have the joy of any time I get excited or look forward to something it blows up in my face. So when people say they have wonderful news for me my reaction is usually "meh" which could make them sad but also get me better surprises to try and get me excited. 

   My boyfriend's name is irrelevant. But he treats me like a queen. He has his faults and we clash in personalities while at the same time they compliment each other. It's one of those rollar coaster relationship things and it annoys the hell out of me.

   My dream ever since I remember was to sing for people. I wanted to be on the radio not for the fame but because listening to the radio and music made me happy and I wanted people to listen to me and be happy too. Plus I love singing. However I grew up in fostercare making me an overly realistic person that knows I will never become a singer. And I'm ok with that. Fact is I'm also extremely shy. 

   There's so much I could say but I'll stop here. Bai. :3