I miss feeling like I had a partner.
I miss never being alone.
I miss the constant attention, the questions of how I am, how things are.
I miss the endless texts useless "now im just sitting here bored."
I miss not having enough room to sleep. Being too hot. Being squished.
I miss feeling important. Like the only thing that matters.
I miss the devotion.
I miss feeling like half of a pair.
A lot of times now, it feels like its just me.
A part-time lover.
I'm lonely.
I miss being with someone I actually care about. I ALWAYS have someone with me, but this has been the most lonely two years of my life.
ReplyDeletewith a heavy heart, E
I miss you E. I hope things are going better now.
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