Trying

 I'm drawing I'm writing sometimes.

I have a scalpel.

I pretend to myself I don't think of it everyday.

This isn't another letter just. I'm trying to pretend that I don't want to use my tools.

I'm using my healthy tools. I don't want to be here. But I will continue.

"I'm Ok" by 'Call Me Karizma'

I haven't felt good about myself. I've had a lot of people encourage me.

I can't do anything bad. I made people promise me. It's not the most effective. But you think about the person and think about how if they did it you'd be sad. I don't want to lose someone else and I won't let them be broken because of me.

"Don't hurt yourself and I won't"