Where I want to be

 I haven't really thought this out.

I'm not sure if it's out of laziness or fear. Maybe because I don't want to be anywhere. Which again sounds super cringe but it's not like I'm trying to impress anyone with my thoughts. It doesn't really matter what anyone else thinks at this point beyond just generally being an ok guy to them.

I was right not to read some of my old posts mainly because one that sticks out to me is leaving all my shit in a storage unit, buying a gun and just finding somewhere remote to do the deed. I don't think I feel that way anymore. It's pretty desperate. I still worry there's a part of me that still considers it especially with being so excited to knock off the only two things I have on my bucket list which is "see the ocean" and "see a  mountain"

I haven't made any plans post trip. 

I haven't made any plans post trip.

The more I think about the more I wonder if it's a subconscious decision or not. 

Where DO I want to be?