Six Billion Secrets

I cut myself because I've been abused for so long I dont know how else to be.

I'm scared to love because everytime I had love for anything or anyone things would fall apart.

I'm constantly waiting for the next time life fucks me over.

I hate the way I look. Not because I think I'm ugly but because sometimes that's all anyone can see.

I'm afraid to end up a statistic. Whether its becoming unmarried and pregnant, an addict or abuser.

I run away from good things in my life because they always end sooner or later.

I'm selfish.

I'm an asshole because I'm afraid people will realize how weak and sensitive I actually am.

I laugh away pain because I don't know any other way.

I pretend I dont care about anything truth is I probably care a lot more then you'd ever guess.

I feel like a whore because of all the people that have taken advantage of me sexually... I feel like I could've done more to stop them.

 I keep so many secrets because I'm scared if people knew they'd be scared of how fucked up my lifes been or they'll lose interest in me.

I'm afraid to gain weight because I've always been the "tiny girl" and that it'd make me less appealing.

I take so many pictures and keep so many things because I'm afraid of forgetting.

I'll never think I'm good enough because that's all I was told when I was little.

the only reason I stay alive is for the people who care about me otherwise I hate living.

I dont know who I am.