I broke up with Adam today. Also in a lot of physical pain. I'm generally being stupid and moving way too fast and I dont know why. I hate myself more then ever. Fuck everything, seriously. Maybe I should just whore around. I dont have any real respect for myself, not anymore. Everything good eventually turns to shit. Hoping is worthless dreams are painful and "love" is bullshit. Sorry for this shitty post. I have nothing else besides shit I dont need a job that's worthless and a dwindling will for life. Take this meek offering of a peek into my life and know its better being you than me.
edit: Dear E (I assume that's what I'm to call you?) Bad things have happened sorry I've been stressed but I'll try to post some pics of my cat for you :)
It's me, E. You know what I am a young guy.... I don't really like to be to involved with people normally. Easier to get to know them from a distance. I never know what to say or do around people, so I drown myself in my interests and hobbies. Thats how I handle life. My point is don't hate yourself for whats happened, because it's already done. Find a focus. Make a goal or find a new interest or try to master a current skill. Distract yourself and move on with life. When things pick up a bit and you feel better all the melancholyfrom before will sort themselves out. my last two bits are don't whore around because thats just going to make you feel worse and finally... i am very sorry to hear about you and Adam and I hope it's something you two kids can work out. Your not alone I've been there.
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P.s. I think I like E more than anonymous :) it almost has that mysterious shady character sound lol complete opposite of my personality but funny
Oh yes also please do post the pics of your cat... I used to hate cats but i live with 2 of them now and I have grown rather fond of the damn things.
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