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A little demon she was. A tiny fragile thing. Insignificant, believing she meant anything. Everyone made promises and excuses, apologies, it all goes on and on and on and on.

She spends eternity alone. 

People blame themselves

Yeah id love to write a suicide note saying so and so and he or she was why i killed myself.
Dont flatter yourself.
Ive wanted to die before i knew feelings. I wanted to die before i knew i could do it myself.

To my middleschool best friend

You were one of the first i trusted when i didnt trust anyone. I loved you before i even knew how to love. You were my everything. My role model.
You taught me how to be a normal girl.
You say drift like it was something gradual.
I just desperately wanted to know what i did wrong.
But i accepted that i was a "poser" and that meant i was dirt because thats all i had ever been taught.
I needed you when he said hed save me but he choked me instead. I needed you when i was told i was loved when i was hit.
I needed you when i gave my virginity so he'd love me because everyone was gone and i didnt think i was worth it.

I needed a lot of people once upon a time... Now I'm just waiting to give up.

To my biological family

I know youve had it hard.
Dear sperm donator for me will and brenda.
I hate you.
I know you were considering adopting us after that monster destroyed Brenda.
I remember you. The tall man after i lost my little mama, you "saved a lady bug" for me
Ive messaged many william lamar Swearingens.
My brother will is mad cause i tried. He doesn't know hes a junior. And i wont let him know because he cant handle pain like me.
My mom died when i was 15 and i found out alone. I grieved by myself before my parents knew because im still upsessed with brenda.
I wanted so bad to meet her when i turned 18... Instead i had to learn about her through my grandma and aunt...
I give up on you like you did me.
I wanted to love you but you dont feel the same