Stressed

Got the job at Walmart full-time overnight cashier. Started work this Monday 8-5pm for setting up the store as they just built it in my town. Sore as fuck. Feels like the boyfriend complains about me all the time when he's not being sweet emotional and got my period for the first time in 4 years because of Depo two times in a row =.= Worried about getting a Christmas present for Adam worried about his bank account being -$90 don't have cigarettes for tomorrow don't get paid for 8 days. Only have one pair of khakis to wear to work until I get paid. Owe people money. Adam's car repair still hasn't been paid off and he's already talking about the next thing he needs money to get fixed my friends in foster care and turning 18 in January and I told her I'd help her find a place to live/can live with us when we get our own place. Need to do my drivers test but it's snowed and I have no idea how to park. MY car is snowed in which doesn't matter except the windows don't seal. I don't want my lip piercing to close up but i can't even wear a clear plastic thing at work. EVERYTHING HURTS. Christmas is coming up and my aunt is wanting to invite me to things but every time I try to talk to my mom on facebook she goes offline (is she avoiding me?) All I want to do when I get home is sleep or just zone out and not have to think or do anything. I haven't been sleeping well and I'm constantly worried that somehow I'm going to lose this job that I REALLY need. I'm already trying to figure out how to portion out my first check while also trying to figure out what I might need with my second check. I'm worried about things that won't become relevant until spring and it's only just started snowing. I've been wanting to cut again and dealing with depression and anxiety and guilt and fear and anger and happiness and tiredness all mixed up. Fuck all of this shit.

Anxiety ftw.