Jobs going well... Pretty mundane.
And.... BAM!! Cause you know "Charlotte's Web" hurr hurr.
Also purty sure my hairs going to fall out this was all in the last few months :/ Don't judge me!
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It was red for a while but work thought it was too "pink" D: I've been trying to paint again also
It's not finished yet. I've been having back pain for a while from work. Sooo doing things is hard rofl. Soon I shall be getting churro's man parts snipped. Really nothing else to say. Sooo...
Today I will blather on about... I don't think I've talked about anorexia. I understand the idea to get skinny the easy way. I'm not quite sure how to go about this so first I will give my uplifting/don't do it speech then I will rant...
I am a skinny gal. I always have been I don't look at it as some sort of wonderful thing. I constantly have people telling me to eat more bitching me out for being "anorexic" and what not. When I was in high school it was hard. I don't have the beautiful curves and I'm barely an A-cup. I look at these girls killing themselves and I only half understand. At one point in time when I started gaining a little weight, I was scared. For so much of my life I was the "tiny" one the one people would pick up just because I was small enough that they could. It became my identity.I regret ever thinking that. I'm at the point now that when I had originally started working and hit 95 I was scared. I wasn't a little girl any more I knew all the problems that come with being underweight and I deal with them every day.
If you think you're "fat" and anorexia is your only choice know that I'm not even that bad and I deal with passing out if I don't eat. I have an irregular heartbeat that hits me and makes me exhausted even if I'm sitting down. etc.
Rant time because that other crap is boring
The whole idea of starving yourself to be perfect is in all honesty stupid as fuck. You look like shit you feel like shit and then YOU FUCKING DIE. Great way to end life your body eats your heart. So brutal. If you think you're so fat go on a fucking diet and work to be skinny. Some of you may even be stuck with your body type. It's literally HOW YOU WERE MADE TO BE. The reason diets don't work is because once you get your ideal weight you'll have to keep up on dieting FOREVER because your body has a set weight/body fat it wants to be at. Anorexia is the laziest fucking thing I've ever heard of. "I want it fast and easy so why not just starve myself?" That shit's bull and you need to grow up or get some fucking help.
I understand people get a mental disorder and it become's an actual addiction but get over yourself and get some help. If you want to starve yourself because of shit other people say then just remember, FUCK THEM. They aren't you so their opinion DOES NOT FUCKING MATTER.
The End.
