Family

   Talk about your siblings.

Brenda: Died when I was six

Mary: Older sister. Pretty awesome, I'm sure most people would like her. She's one of my role models just because she's got most things figured out. Not to mention I know she'll help me out when I need it. She goes to college in another state and I lived with her for a while. Pretty cool fucking beans imo. My adoptive parents biological daughter which doesn't mean shit just that we don't look like each other :3. And yeah she's gorgeous.

William: My older brother a little awkward at times but he's sweet. A little lost in life right now maybe but I'm sure he'll figure it out. He was my best friend for quite a while. He's moved farther away and I don't get to talk to him a lot which makes me sad. He's weird like me.

Vivian: Little sister. I haven't seen her in a while. I miss talking to her. I hear she's doing really well and I hope that continues.

Being as this is my blog and I don't have permission from them this is only a vague idea of my siblings.

My Mom: Complete badass 'nuff said there. But also the strongest woman I know. I'm glad my parents adopted me. Thought she was strict when living with them but I realized how much better I am from it :)

My Dad: Sweetest dad anyone could have. Be jealous.

Dream Date

I stopped the day count because I can but I guess I'll continue making posts :P.

A date you would love to go on.

Ummmm, anything super fun like movies are cool and whatever it's nice but I like actually DOING things together. As in when Adam and I went to Valley Scare with his brother Zach and his girlfriend. Or I don't know bowling, laser tag, skating etc. I don't have a specific "Dream Date" just going out and having fun. Or you know staying in and playing an intense game like Mario Party :3 or you know Left for Dead. Anything to have fun and excitement.

The truth about my cutting

Age: 19

How long have you been self harming?:

6 years but really more like 12

What methods of self harm do you use?:

Cutting, burning, scratching, hitting, chemical burns, hair pulling etc.Are your legs, arms, & other body parts covered in scars?:

legs, arms, chest, stomach, ankle

Off the top of your head, about how many scars do you have?:

Too many to count

Do you want to stop cutting, but can’t because of addiction?:

I have stopped for the time beingDo you have (diagnosed or not) Depression, and/or Bipolar/BPD?:

depression, anxiety, and possible BPD

Who knows you self harm?:

My boyfriend, my close family and friends.

Have you ever been caught cutting?:

many times

Do you cut on your hands, neck, or face?:

I have

Have your parents ever confronted you about a scar?:

Yes

Why do you self harm?:

Because I don't know how to show what I feel in a constructive way. So I showed my inner pain with outer wounds. I didn't like people thinking I was pretty when I felt so ugly. I tried to match my outsides to how I felt

Have you ever talked to a therapist or counselor?:

yes

Do you like cutting?:

Very much

What’s your favorite excuse to use when someone asks about a cut/scar?:

Zombie attack

How many times have you tried to commit suicide?:

3

Do you have to wear long-sleeves & long-pants all the time?:

I used to

Do you cut on your stomach, or chest?:

Yes

Favorite tool?:

anything. I've used razor blades, plastic cards, bleach, my nails, needles, knives, lighters, my hair straightener, box cutters, and hot water

Do you sometimes envy other people? (non-self-injurers):

Because of their scar free skin?

I think my scars are beautiful

Because they’re thin, gorgeous, and smart?

No

Have you ever taken any pictures of your cuts/scars?:

Yes

Have you been sexually/emotionally abused?:

both

How do you take care of your cuts or bruises?:

make sure they don't bleed through my clothes that's it