TikTok SA Videos

He's talking about SA and I think about everytime I've been silent or I blew it off or I thought I did deserve it. 

I wore a skirt I reported it but was blamed. (hem below my knees)

I was nice to them when other girls weren't. We talked about our feelings 

I thought he was quirky and fun to be around and I grew up with a brother so wrestling was normal until it wasn't.

I remembered in middleschool when I turned him down because I was insecure, so in highschool I gave him a chance.

I was homeless and self medicating with drugs and alcohol and the molly he gave me made me black out

But I lost all my friends and boyfriend at the time for that.

I'm his girlfriend. I have to.

rain on my parade

I had a beautiful fucking day.

You rained

Turned me grey

Where am i?

I wanted to spend all day on me and Beebs room. 

He sweetly called me his Lil "rot gf" cause I haven't been able to be awake.

I promise I wanted to clean our room but his mom has been telling me about wanting the patio furniture out.

He's so good to me. I don't deserve someone as beautiful as he is. 

I do cater to his mom a bit too much maybe. I just want to show that we can be

Post Easter

Nothings wrong 

                             besides me.

Everyone catered 

                             to my insecurities 

I don't know. I know I cried

                             Everyone was sweet. 

 

Today I feel like a 20oz bottle of sprite. 

Insignificant 

Transparent 

Ready to explode.

Will you open me?

Happy post

I'm going to try and apply for disability with my mom on Tuesday. That's not the point.

I love him.

We weren't exactly highschool sweethearts but we both immediately fell in love the second we met at Feed Our Starving Children.

Right person wrong time.

We were like 14 or 15. I was Veggiesoyrus (veggie, soy, rice) and he was just chicken xD 

He kept getting distracted so I'd shout "CHICKEN!!" at him.

He is perfect. 

Our mom's were ALL ABOUT us hanging out after. I said I'd live to play tennis with him but really I just wanted to be with him.

10+ years I get to wake up with him beside me. I think I'm starting to trust he won't leave me. 

The other day he said he's finally got the girl of his dreams and honestly I've got my guy <3

I get SOO grumpy and mean with him and he's only sweet and apologetic. (I get grumpy when I want snuggles)

He supports me when I'm manic and depressed.

He's honestly everything I've been hoping for.

And I'm hoping we'll stay this way forever.

I know I'm in it for the long haul.

dream?

I feel spirits and a priest trying to take Beebs awake and I think I'm psychically  fighting them.

I'm dumb.

I was about to fall asleep for once

An Attempt failed and fires were lit.

I do want to change but it's still a little hard too. 

My mom wants to help me get on disability. It's A LOT.

I keep trying to handle things but I obviously haven't been. 

I give up my pride. I keep hurting people by TRYING. But I just keep ending up homeless or in psych.

I know how they can see me when I'm actually there.

It's shameful for me but I do know they look at me with love.

I'm thankful.

(Thoughts from being fired from wally a couple weeks ago)